To my MIL

 If you were still here,...

Our bubba probably wouldn't have experience all of the trauma that he has experience because you would have protected him from it.  He would not been groomed and sexual abused for years by a family member; he would not have been put into a program while was a "good" Autistic program wouldn't have been needed for him, had the school been following his IEP plan properly.  Him and his sister would not be in the state that they are because you would have encouraged him to be her protector versus her feeling like he is going to be her obligation someday.  

Our lil miss, would have another strong willed woman to guide her through this ever changing world.  She also may have escaped being sexual abused by a family member because you were never really a fan of my stepmother or her daughter.  We have tried to raise a strong willed, courageous, grateful young lady but, I definitely feel like we have fallen short in a lot of aspects. Despite of her past issue she has became amazing, beautiful, strong, stubborn, talented young lady that you would be so proud of.

Our lil man, you never got to physically meet because you were already gone but, you would have loved fiercely.  He has had tubes put in his ears when he was 7 yrs old, he has ADHD and a learning disability but, he is most amazing loving, caring, outgoing, beautifully pure souled child that I have ever meet.  He was very misunderstood child in his younger ages (i.e. primary school, they didn't realize that he had learning disability).  He can be most stubborn child at times but, he will be damned if someone hurts his family.  

There is not a single day that goes by I feel like that "God" or "high being" took the wrong person because while you and I may have had our differences with each other, I knew you loved Bill, myself, and our children whole heartedly and would have fought tooth & nail for them, as well as prevented them from being sexual abused.  

I know if you were still here, I would have been able to pursue my dream of nursing a lot sooner because we would have you to leaned into to be there for our kiddos.  

You are missed everyday more than word can ever express, we love you mom!