Sunday, August 21, 2022

Road to my dream of being a nurse

I will start with saying that I love my mom and everything that she has done for us in the last couple years.  When I was 16, I choose to move in with my dad (who basically violated me as a minor to move in with anyways  him) with approval with my mom because she knew that he/stepmother would listen to the fact that I had a learning disability and get the help that I needed to graduate high school.   And they did get the help that I needed but, my stepmother prevented the path that I wanted because I knew that  I wanted to be a nurse as a junior in High School, she told me, "that we didn't work to get your disabilitily diagnosis to have to run off and ruin it by going to BOCES and become an LPN."  So, I didn't go to BOCES my junior and senior years and become a LPN like I wanted, instead I worked hard (not hard enough) to get accepted into UC of SU (at the time) as undecided (I wanted to a PT but, didn't have ACTs/SATs scores to get into the program).  I ended up deciding on Therapeutic Recreation with minor a Psychology, which I completed in 3.5 yrs.  I don't regret not becoming LPN in high school because I don't know if I would have met Bill if that would have been the case.  I do sometimes regret that I didn't go into nursing when I was UCSU first time because I had ACTs scores to go into nursing back then BUT, I was told that I was NOT allow to go into nursing because I would be compared to my Nana, I would never be as good as a nurse as my Nana, I wasn't as smart as the other nurses, I should have gone through BOCES first.  So, I settled to go into Therapeutic Recreation.  I was/am great at writing program on a dime even though, it wasn't what I truely loved.  I graducated in 3.5 years and I was extremely proud of myself because I wasn't ALWAYS underestimated in that I have a learning disability.  I remember walking the stage with my soon-to-be married name because I refuse to give any honor my father/stepmother of my achievements.  I know that seems selfish considering that they were the ones that were able to get my official diagnosis of my learning disability as well as get the help that I needed to graduate high school and get through college BUT, they were the same people stood by knowing that I was physically, mentally, and emotionally being abused and did nothing yet, told me that I deserved it.   So, I worked as Rec Therapist from 2004-2006 then became stay at home mom from 2006 - 2015 because of bubba being autistic it was where I need to be.  Then going back to being a recreational assistant 2015-2017 when I became a CNA and work as CNA 2017-2018, then went to hospital in 2018 as PCT while I went through LPN school and became LPN in 2019. I finally got my dream of being a nurse in 2019 when I passed and got my license as LPN.